I think my 'nasty streak' (as my Mum always calls it, hi Mum!) has been let out to play a bit too much this week. A lot of bagging has been going on.
I bagged Pickle's Mum when all she was trying to do was be nice. I bagged engagement photos when all people are trying to do is make something special to celebrate their love. I even boasted about calico bags.
And that's just the bits I've written down on my blog.
I know we are all just a bundle of contrasts and complications, but sometimes I just want the nasty streak to go away. It would make life a little bit less interesting, but a whole lot more sweet. I want to be kind and thoughtful and considered in everything I do, not just some things.
It reminds me of all the contradictions that compete inside me every day. Some are big, some are little, but all are a source of great conflict. Sometimes I am paralysed by indecision because half of me wants something about as badly as the other half wants something else.
Outdoorsy / Homebody
Wordly / Naive
Social / Anti-social
Ecclectic / Minimalist
Creative / Rational
Neutral / Bohemian
Extrovert / Introvert
It means that often people have a perception of me that is only a little bit of me, not the whole me. My whole life I have been 'surprising' people. But the only real surprise is that I manage to get anything done at all.
Is this just what personality is?
Do you feel this way?
[Image by Jenni Penni]